forgetting to remember

yesterday we went and visited our friend who had twin boys about 3 months ago. i had seen her a few weeks earlier and at that time i'djust wanted to move in with them and let them all get some sleep. yesterday although they still looked tired they also looked really really happy; the boys are beautiful and the parents really in 'the zone': that special place where you know you haven't slept for months and probably will never sleep uninterrupted sleep ever again but where it just doesn't seem that important. it was lovely. and i really wish that i could remember if i ever looked as competent as they did!